When I found out, there was a website called I'm from driftwood. I was so excited. I kept reading all true gay stories. I was touched by many of them. I immediately contacted creator of website Nathan Manske on facebook. I told him how much I loved his website. He emailed me back and told me I should write my story. I answered him I couldn't, because my story was not happy. He immediately responded back " I'm not looking for only happy stories". I needed to think and digest the idea telling my story in public. I have known for funny & crazy things. What if It would make a bad impact. Most importantly!! Was I ready? I thought over like one week. I did a lot of thinking and crying. Memories I thought I had put in a BLACK BOX started to pop up. Making decision was so emotional. How about my family? And one Sunday Morning I said to myself " It is my story! I lived through this. I can tell who ever I want to". I emailed Nathan "Let's do it!!"
The morning of video shoot I was nerve--wracked. How many times I was at the edge of calling Nathan and canceling all thing. I met Nathan & Marquise (who are extremely cute) in Union Square. Both were so nice and smiley. I was the way too tense. Whole video shoot took like 45 minutes. After that Marquise needed to do some editing. ( Video turned out AMAZING) To tell the truth I was shaken days after video shoot. I had so many sad stories from my dark years and I kept remembering them. Days went on. I got calm down. And this morning Nathan informed me he posted the video. I watched while I was hysterically crying. Here is the video. Also there is a transcript on Nathan's website. (Click here) Watch this video and keep reading, because I will tell you why I did it.
Did you watch? Great!!
A CHOICE??!! Really?
I'm sure there will be people might think I'm crazy because I did this. I'm not crazy. I'm just UNSUAL. I accepted telling my true story because if one gay guy watches this and gets inspired, it would be HUGE success. Those years I didn't even know what was happening with me. I thought I was a freak of nature. I blamed myself for everything. I didn't know there were people like me. I didn't know it was OK to be gay. I didn't know all those horrifying days would never end. I was helpless, scared & exhausted. So Nathan's website will help those gay guys who need some kind of support.
Please you write your story too and send to Nathan. This website needs to get bigger. Straight people should see being a gay is not gay all the time. And It is NOT a choice!!
Nathan has been trying to make a book out of his website. I will be the first one buy. I'm so fortunate to be part of this.
THANK YOU NATHAN! You are an AMAZING guys!
You can contact with Nathan from this link http://www.imfromdriftwood.com/contact/
Tell him your Z's friend
or just email me zreveals@gmail.com. I will be happy to connect you guys.
Don't postpone & write your story
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P.S. I do have a heavy accent!!!! I realized after watching this video! -:)
Z & Nathan during video shoot
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